Things are looking up, but not good enough...

Found some educational related jobs and they do not seem to mind temp A level ppl, despite the ad saying qualified teachers. Whatever la. Interview tml. Im so elated that there's a chance in teaching for now. Relief teaching does not seem to be getting back at me yet, thus Im gonna rush them tml. Or on Thursday. See when I will be free.

Managed to meet up with an old fren today and the feeling was great. Havent talked this much since secondary sch and JC. Army simply estranges lives. Irritating.. Glad Im out of it, for now.

Anyway Im very tired now. How I wish Man is indefatigable. Sleep is a waste of time and I dun exactly like dreaming cos I cant slp in peace with that. Sleep is better off an option than a survival need. Im exhausted by driving and job hunts. And my social life is hardly improving. No money no time again. When can I then be freed from this maxim of Simon's life??

My life seems so manipulated, by things that I hardly like doing. Job-hunting, driving? If I were some agent or racer then maybe I will feel blessed but no. Hate doing all this, and under the guilt that Im leeching off my Mom, being uselessly fussy over jobs for probably the right reasons (I still think my assertion abt the jobs are apt). Why cant I just teach now, get a decent salary, swim and enjoy life sometimes, and most imptly start giving mom some allowance...

My life is screwed now. Till I get a job... Im still optimistic (I think I will always be) but I can feel the optimism leaking thru my ego day by day.. I hope my procrastinating angels (job agents) herald in favourable opportunities. Fast, soon, NOW...